looking for the pot of gold at the end, or something else.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

i'm sick . that all.

i need some rest.

If I change my face shape
my nose, shape my cheeks
and I change my lips
will my heart be the same?
If I change my eyes
like the sky so blue
and my hair so blond
will I know who I am?
If I change my skin
bleach it out,
scrub it clean
like the snow so white
will I remember who I was?
If I change my clothes
a designer label or two
and an expensive watch
will they then call me 'friend'?
If I change my speech
like a singing Lord
and my voice so deep
will they know who I was?
and if I sing my song
like a bird in the morn
and my words are the truth
will you still be my friend?

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

may you rest in peace.

been studying for the pat few weeks,seem to get agitated very quckily,don't know what's the reason but just feel damn stress. just feel like leaving the book on the table and go for the exam.
feeling so shitty now,doggy has gone.normally he knows his way home but this time he din came back.after been missing for 2 days,my bro found out blood stain outside our house.this moment, sudden rush of tears just filled my eyes,it was disheartening to hear blood stain and i know he tried to return home,he really tried but he din make it,i know he's injured,guess he's gone forever.i cried,for the first time,he's the longest dog we ever kept,the dog our family doted it so much.suddenly i missed him, i had seen him grown up,from a little puppie to a big dog.i remember how he protect me from strangers,now he's gone.the cage is left open,the container is left untouch.i'm sad, that all.
the pillow is whose that unhuman idiotic person who did that?

Monday, August 15, 2005

happy birthday to clement.

all of ur lifewe are obsessed by this word -success.somehow most of us have pegged to the very reason for existence itself.yet it is not at all clear what sucess really is.it seem to mean widely different things to different people.sucess to a poor man is to find riches,to a student it is to score high grades,to a miss universe aspirant it is to win first prize,to a writer it is to write a world class best seller,to a mystic it is to realise God,the list can go and on.an acceptable definition is.perhap the attainment of whatever one sets out to attain.
so what yours ?

now i had become a tv freak,watching the show ''da chang jin''.out of 5 stars,i give 4 stars.i think it's a great show.

the clock's tick 12 am,everybody was suppose to asleep by now but i was at the highway watching the fireworks.the first time where i had a close view of it.it was awesome,everyone was like 'wow',headed to some wulu place to had supper.
once again,it was singapore 40th birthday.this year was great,went over to padang with nes to watch the whole parade.we were hemmed in on all sides by human bodies.we were all sweaty and stuffy and i wished that air-condition was there.we were early just to get a good seat.one thing bad about is that the camera man block our view.ARG!.we had a wonderful time over there,watching the fireworks,the parade and most importantly doing the singapore wave.everything was planned well,the presence of the people made the whole nation feel like home,if you experience than you will know how does it feel.the whole week, almost everyday was out.basically studying.chinese result was release,yeah i managed to get a c5.thou it's not what i wanted but yeah didnt put in my best effort so who else to blame but myself.gonna re-take again.final decision.seriously gonna mug very hard for prelims and ''o''.at least the motivation of studying is there and of cos i managed to spend my day revising chemistry and some phyisc well,it's time to get serious about it,words are just meant to say but no action,it's pointless.

now hooking on to my physic ten year series,gonna get back to study.
bye

the way i want it to be.
it's still a long way.
one by one
step by step.
you will reach it someday.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

happy brithday to paul and jason.

now everywhere i go,i need to put on sunglasses in order not to spread to anyone.thanks to my brother by spreading the virus to me,the doctor was like saying the shortest period was 5 days and the longest was 6 week,i was like ''WT''.the e-achlemist def had lot's of fun in k-boxing,looking forward to another one.HAHA!.after k-boxing,we just shop around and got myself a bag.went over to my cousin 21st birthday,he got himself a golden plated key by his mother,finally got to see my cousin sihui boyfriend.he's a angmo,cant really understand what he was saying,damn slang.his name was veri long too.shortest to say is john.HAHA!.
it was extremely fun ytd's,was out the whole day at bugis,vivan was late.our so called 'fashion coodinator'' was great.the first time doing it,was damn nervous but with minn,roxanne and vivan encouragement,everytime seems so fun! 3 big cheers to the 10 finalist,i think we did a pretty good job,all the girls were beautiful,it was totally a new experience for me and realli a eye-opening as you can see lot's of camera surrounded by you.one thing bad for me is that i having sore eyes,pretty bad condition and i had to put eyedrop for many time.went to esp to watch the firewors with nes,jon,deb.haha!.one word to describe AWESOME!.

congrate to roxanne, vivan and hweeshan.
the beauties - minn,alvina,shiwei,zhengru,qili,natasha,you are the BEST!and not forgetting the 3 hunks haha!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

happy birthday to clar and beng.

i'm so full after eating 4 rolls of chee cheong fan.one word yummy!just got a call from my cousin in malaysia wishing me a belated birthday,even thou it was late msg and he's busy but yet his call was already a surprise for me,thansks bro jerry,appreciate his little time.it's like how many years din really chatted with him.hope life is fine for him in malaysia.ok,looking forward to tml,the alchemist is having k-boxing.let's rock the whole room~once again,the 7th month reaches,i just hate it so much when you MUST reach home early.so another word is that it's a good time to study,better than rotting at home,practically doing nth but slacking infront of my bloody com.another 1 more week 'o' level chinese result coming out,ARG!come on everybody wanna get aleast a b3.just hope for the best than.national's day is coming,everybody are told to wear red and white and of course my class will be participating.the 5a2 team spirit.HAHA!

von,must really take care of yourself k.prelim coming and you're gotta be healthy!understand? haha, must must must take care..

the song.
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

Monday, August 01, 2005

ok,back to action.time flies passed and now it's already aug.prelim coming' at least i not slacking anymore,mugging real hard now.nothing else matter now anymore, it's my studies i care most now.tp -i'm coming.just spend my birthday,thanks peeps for remembering it and all the gifts! i lovess themm.. must had gained lot's of weight after having heavy dinner in a row of 3 days,making me puke.

dedicated to my beloved sista~
special thanks to vonny, mainny - thankss for the gift, i lovesss you load!. yeah , remember the balloons will never be apart. it will always be tie up as 1. muacck
dumb dumb agnes - thanks for your stupid night call every day~. haha!! making me miss our dumb dumb chat !
deb - let me whine all the time, thankss for your ears!. haha
cindie,yan - thanks for the time you fork out for me!! remember we are happy family!
my greatest mum~you're the besT!