Thursday, December 29, 2005
it wasn't right at all.
tears seems to fail me.so much pain inside, yet the inability to let go is tormenting.when tears started to fall,it's come with no ending.
why does it hurt so much when love is supposed to be wonderful and glorious? Is it called love?the fear of rejection,the fear of being left alone.why does it haunt me now? why am i feeling so insecure?
what is called communication if everything is nothing but just a facade?just one side giving and giving withou asking for anything in return? why is it when tears comes it's so hard to stop flowing from your eyes?the end has not even came,yet, i fear the worse.i can't imagine a life without you,your warmth, your touch and your voice.where are you?
you shouldn't have came back.you should have just went away and never came back. I shouldn't have ever let you back.i'm afraid of the hurt and pain i'd go through.facing it alone doesnt make me stronger.it scared me.it really does.
part of me wants to just in the rain,drown my sorrows.pretending to be the person im not. trying to stay happy cause you hate me crying.doing everything in my own will not let you go,i'm too tired.i afraid and i'm insecure.why am i feeling this way?words seems to fail me.always.it's normal isn't it.faintly the feeling is so familiar.rejection,pain,unhappiness,depression.it's coming back.oh please take it away.wash it away in the rain.i'm not trying to be emotional but i just need to whine.that's all.
